What are some early experiences that hint at my kinkiness? It’s hard to separate this one out from the previous post, but I’ll do what I can to isolate one or two events.
My favorite story to tell in response to this question takes place when I was about seven or eight, I think. I’ve told this story so many times that I’m sure it’s not a surprise to those of you who know me in person, actually. I’m not sure why it comes up so often – maybe it’s the weird crowd I run with.
In any case, I remember being quite the rowdy tomboy as a child, and I was also a bit of a loner – not something that made for a lot of girl friends. I was a weird kid, basically. I was also bossy, which didn’t go well with my other personality traits, but serves me nicely nowadays.
I was at my babysitter’s house. We were playing a game based on the movie Sleeping Beauty. You know how kids do – lots of pretend play. I really wanted to be Prince, but since I’m a girl, I wasn’t allowed. I was given the role of Beauty, which I guess isn’t so bad, except in the part we were playing, Beauty was pretty useless. In fact, we were playing the big climactic scene where Beauty is tied up and Prince slays the dragon. (See why I wanted to be the prince?) I actually don’t remember anymore if Beauty was tied up in the movie. It’s been a very long time since I saw that particular Disney film. In any case, the boy playing Prince tied me to the banister and left me there to run off and slay the dragon. I wanted to be outraged, but the fact was, being tied up didn’t bother me so much. It wasn’t sexual to me, at least not at the time, but I felt a thrill, being tied up. Something exciting could happen at any moment. I didn’t mind being Beauty after all.
Now that I think of it, I should really have my characters tie each other up more often. What a basic kink to explore.
The other story isn’t so much a story as a personality trait. Remember when I mentioned that I was bossy? Well, I was. I liked to play pretend a lot (roleplay, to the grownups), and I liked to insist that people do exactly what I told them to do. Not just in the “Let’s play this game” kind of way, but more “You do this or else.” My ultimatums were pretty weak as a preteen, but to my grown up mind, looking back, the seeds of being a good, solidly bossy Domme are there. Too bad I’m not so great at tapping into that side of myself these days! It’s the life of a new found switch, I guess.
I can also remember early experiences with masturbation, though I didn’t recognize them as such. I was probably as young as six (maybe younger, I’m not sure) when I started touching myself, knowing it felt good but not knowing why or what that meant.
So those are basically my earliest sexual and kinky experiences in a nutshell. Anything you’d like to share about early experiences?